Move & Bail.

The last week of my life has been dedicated to getting moved and settled into my new apartment in Carroll Gardens.   Although Janeen and I just arrived, and despite the place’s current cardboard box motif, I can tell we’re going to love it here. 

This neighborhood and this apartment make me feel like a real New Yorker for perhaps the first time.  Better late than never, I guess.  The view at my old place was seaside:  a turbulent sea of grim-faced suits streaming through the shadows cast by stupid monstrous slabs of concrete.   For a brief time I felt energized by that scenery, but I soon discovered that I was only forcing myself to experience a cliched rite of passage into a world I quickly learned to tolerate rather than enjoy.  For years, I had occasionally experienced a palpable feeling of dread upon striding out my front door.

Relatively speaking, my Brooklyn view is pastoral.  My block has trees, squat chocolate brownstones and a lower volume but wider variety of passerby.  It’s not the size, shape and color of the people that distinguishes them, it’s the obvious lack of commonality in their stories.  My old neighborhood had two categories of residents:  the smaller group was made up of old rich people and the predominant group were new to New York City–cogs in Manhattan’s midtown and Wall Street machines.  Carroll Gardens has these, but also many other categories of residents, categories too numerous and nuanced to accurately list here.  I think people usually sum up my new neighborhood by saying it’s got “character.”  All I know is that after ten years at my old address, stepping outside is now a quasi-literal breath of fresh air.

It also doesn’t hurt that my new place dwarfs my old one in size, so much so that feels like an actual home–it has… gasp… more than one room.  Even though I barely realized it, a small studio apartment was a stifling place to live, and an especially stifling one to work from.  I’m writing this blog entry from my comfortably sized “office,” a room clearly distinguishable from our bedroom and our living room (as well as our “other bedroom”).  Pretty cool.

So hello Brooklyn and goodbye Manhattan.  I was so ready to go that upon packing up and leaving my old place, I felt none of the expected regret or uncertainty, just a prevailing wistfulness.  A wistfulness brought on by a flood of memories, good and bad, made in that small space over an extended period in my life during which everything changed more than once.

This is not just a happy time for me but also a strange one, since our landmark relocation cannot be celebrated in a traditional way.  I’m off to Chicago and then Las Vegas starting tomorrow, and I won’t be returning to my new digs for over three, possibly four, weeks. 

In Chicago I will be attending my first celebrity wedding, as Janeen’s brother and his fiancee are tying the knot.  They would both undoubtedly insist that they are unfamous (not infamous but unfamous) if they read that, but they both have achieved the world’s grand, undisputed, official gauge of fame:  entries on Wikipedia.  I’m lucky, both these future in-laws are likable cool people, and I’m looking forward to the wedding.

From Chicago I will be embarking on what will likely turn out to be the busiest month of my poker career.  Thanks to a surprisingly (and gratifyingly) successful first foray into the world of staking, I have collected enough money to comfortably play almost all the World Series of Poker tournaments I desire.  And I intend to play as many as possible.  For the next month, I will be playing large poker tournaments on a nearly daily basis.  I will not be an easy out.

And, as a presumably welcome change of pace, I’ll update my blog frequently from poker’s mecca during it’s most meccalicious month.   

Exciting Investment Opportunity.

I have decided to accept some staking in the preliminary World Series of Poker Events this year.
 
If you are interested in receiving the full details of what I’m offering and you’re someone I know and trust, please contact me and I’ll provide you with the prospectus.   🙂

-DZ

The Golden Rule.

“If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.”

That was a popular refrain in grade school, and it effectively kept me from making fun of the kid with the nosepicking habit.  Lately though, it has also applied here.  I’ve been quiet on the blogging front because there’s really nothing good to report in pokerland.  But this thing is supposed to be about my trials and tribulations, not only my triumphs, so here you go.

While this is a very exciting, satisfying time in my life–Janeen and I just had a great engagement party and we’re closing on our new apartment tomorrow–I’m also withstanding an extended period of losing while playing fairly high volume online.

It’s the same old story:  I am having a very hard time getting over the hump in online tournaments.  The problem is crystal clear.  The intuition I have in brick & mortar settings is missing from my online game.  Yes, the competition, on average, is worse in live tournaments, but I’m certain that the issue runs deeper than that.  I simply make better reads live.  Of all the “sick laydowns” or “sick calls” or sick plays of any kind I’ve ever made, 95% of them have been live.  I just think with much greater clarity when my opponent is sitting there in front of me in the flesh. 

The solution is something I’ve been pondering for a very long time.  I’ve thought of everything:  switch to cash games, play sit ‘n go’s exclusively, take more notes, take fewer notes, use tracking programs, quit using tracking programs, play more volume, play less volume, play lower stakes, play higher stakes, add another monitor… I’ve thought of everything, although I’ve implemented relatively few changes.  The changes I have implemented have been ineffective.  Particularly embarrassing is the fact that my ROI (roughly “rate of return” for those of you who don’t speak pokernerd) in Pokerstars tournaments has slipped into negative figures over a very long period of time.  I’m still doing fine in sit ‘n go’s and on Full Tilt, so I’m not losing a ton of money, but Pokerstars tournaments, which were once my bread and butter, have become impossible for me to crack.

My recent failures are having a negative impact on my psyche.  It’s getting bad.  I have found myself screaming obscenities and throwing tantrums, which is pretty unusual for me.  These episodes are surely amusing to look at, but unfortunately I don’t get to witness them, so they don’t help me in any capacity. 

This is no way to warm up for the World Series of Poker.  So for the time being, I’m going back to basics.  I’m going to play online tournaments of all stake levels until my confidence is restored.  Final tabling a $10 tournament after 7.5 hours of play and walking away with $438 might feel kind of futile to someone who has several six-figure scores to his credit, but I need to remind myself that I still know what I’m doing, dammit. 

Quite the Daily Double?

What are the odds of the two most momentous personal events in your lifetime occurring on consecutive days? 

If you’re me, your odds (while still miniscule) just became higher than most.  The buzz in the poker world right now is about Harrah’s decision to move the WSOP Main Event’s final table to November, several months after the rest of the tournament is completed.  The reason they’re doing this is obvious:  to market the crap out of the final table and its participants and build yet more hype around the tournament.  The drawbacks are also fairly obvious:  the amateurs that make the final table can spend months prepping, thereby leveling the playing field, collusion will become a greater possibility, and of course what if someone dies in the interim?!

For me, the most interesting fact about the new final table date is that it’s the day after my wedding.  So in the extremely unlikely event that I make the final table, Janeen and I will become instant celebrities and the world will undoubtedly follow along as I hightail it out of Chicago the morning after my own wedding to go become a millionaire.  The ESPN camera crew will be a welcome addition to the reception.  😉