I’m typing this message from a hotel room in Biloxi, Mississippi, located in the center of a strip of land called the Gulf Coast.  Until yesterday, this part of the globe had somehow escaped my lifelong preternatural obsession with geography.  I’ve always been fairly fascinated by maps.  I can pore over the pages in McNally’s Atlas for thirty minutes without growing bored.  But somehow the Gulf Coast is a place I’d never given so much as a second thought.  Really, all I knew about this place were those nasty Katrina clips from CNN back in 2005.

This is all pretty unfortunate, because the Gulf Coast is a place a guy like me needs to prepare for.  And I was woefully unprepared for this trip.

I was unprepared to travel to begin with.  I had an “extended” New Years Eve night, and at my advanced age, my once formidable regenerative powers are not what they used to be.  Before I dragged myself to the airport on the afternoon of January 2nd, the best I could do was hastily fill a suitcase with random articles of clothing and stuff my laptop into a bag.  Out the door I went.

I was unprepared for a brutal day of air travel.  In an effort to save some money, I declined the more expensive options of flying into Gulfport (the closest airport to Biloxi) or directly to Mobile (the next closest airport).  Instead, I chose an itinerary that included a short layover in Atlanta, followed by the last flight of the night from Atlanta to Mobile, followed by a one hour drive in a rented car from Mobile to Biloxi.  When the inevitable delay caused my plane to touch down in Atlanta only 20 minutes before my connection, my only recourse was a panicked sprint through the massive Hartsfield Airport, my luggage careening behind me on its squeaky worn-out wheels.  Not fun at all, especially in my condition.

Although I made my connection (with under two minutes to spare!), I was unprepared for a short but uncomfortable trip to Mobile in a disquietingly small aircraft with an engine that made an outrageous amount of noise.  I was also unprepared to sit next to a large, talkative bearded man who smelled like regurgitated Southern Comfort.  And upon deplaning, I was certainly unprepared for my second maniacal long distance sprint of the night, this time through pedestrian traffic to the Mobile Airport’s rental car counter, which I reached just as it was closing.  I was the beneficiary of the final rental agreement of the night, which spared me the pleasure of a night in Mobile.

I was unprepared to drive through a dense, persistent fog all the way to Biloxi.  When my GPS instructed me to turn onto a deserted, spooky, unlit two lane road, I presumed it was on the fritz.  It wasn’t.  This was the way to Biloxi.  I was unprepared to witness an alarming amount of roadkill on this portion of my journey, including two dogs, then some other mammalian species I didn’t recognize.

I was unprepared for Biloxi.  Yikes.  I was told that this was one of the nicer stops on tour.  If that assessment is accurate, there are some real serious shithole towns with poker rooms in this country.  To be frank, BIloxi is rather depressing.  The yet-unrepaired damage done by Katrina is evident everywhere, from the vacant weedy lots where businesses obviously once stood, to the limbless drooping trees lining the shorelines, to the presence of shoddily paved roads everywhere.  I did some exploring in my rental car today, and there’s just nothing going on down here, unless a smattering of gas stations and fast food drive-thru’s are your idea of what’s happening.  I came up completely empty on what I thought was a reasonable quest: for a decent place to watch the football games.  No dice.  Plunked down in the middle of the desolation is a series of about ten casinos, some gleaming, others themselves in varying states of disrepair.  They create a visually discordant environment; the casinos look particularly stupid and shameless on this sad beachfront.

After a very short night’s sleep (in one of the lower-end casino/hotels), I thought I was prepared to make it to today’s tournament at the Beau Rivage (a higher-end property) on time.  Alas, no.  Everywhere else I’ve ever played, a 10:15 arrival for a 12:00 start typically gets the job done.  Not here.  The turnout for today’s $300 event was so massive (over 1000 runners) that I waited on line for an hour and a half only to become the 30th alternate entry in a capped tournament field.  Not good, especially when the structure calls for a starting stack of only 5000 chips with forty minute levels.

I was unprepared for the poker players down here.  In the Northeast and in Vegas, I’m accostomed to crafty types at the poker table:  dour asian men imitating lizard statues, studiously unkempt young dudes smirking at everyone in their baggy clothes.  Not down here.  Down here, every poker player has the countenance of a fat kid munching on his cotton candy at the county fair.  I had the urge to blurt out “you’re having a really nice time, ain’t ya?!” no fewer than twenty times today.  And no matter how often you hear the kind of down-home dialect people speak down here on TV, I reckon you’re still unprepared for the real deal.  Yowzers.  I have no idea what anyone’s talking about.  I was also unprepared for the number of cigarette smokers in the tournament field.  The lobby outside the tournament room was straight-up poisonous.

Needless to say, I was also unprepared to perform well in today’s tournament, and I fulfilled my suicide mission pretty quickly after I finally got seated.  But I did notice that the games are real soft, which makes Biloxi a lot more appealing than it othwerise would be.  After a good night’s sleep and a greasy breakfast (the only kind offered, me thinks), I suspect I’ll get more comfortable in these new surroundings soon.  I better, I have a full week to go.

2008 was a momentous and fulfilling year in my personal life.  Janeen and I got engaged.  We purchased,  moved into and furnished a new apartment.  We got married.  We went on an amazing honeymoon (I still plan on blogging about this trip, it was unreal).  My life took the figurative sharp left turn at Albuquerque (big ups to Bugs Bunny).  Things have changed so much this year that the 2007 version of me would probably struggle a bit to recognize the domesticated guy sitting here (in a Snuggie, for the record!) writing this entry.

On the other hand, professionally speaking, my 2008 was the opposite of momentous.  In fact, it was a dud.  My year got off to a fast start when I final tabled two Atlantic City tournaments, winning one of them.  From there it all fell apart.

After the two AC scores, I slowed down a bit.  The purchase of our apartment and our move occupied quite a bit of time, so I decided to take a break and make the WSOP the focal point of my professional year.  When WSOP season arrived, I dove in headfirst.  I stayed in Vegas for the majority of the month of June and played as many tournaments as I could, living and breathing tournament poker for about 40 days straight.  The results were atrocious:  I cashed in one single event and whiffed on everything else, making the 2008 WSOP a financial wipeout of proportions I had never before experienced.  Several other factors exacerbated the situation, turning it from a fiscal disaster into an emotional clusterfuck:  I felt isolated and alone during the extended trip.  I felt a subtle but palpable sense of guilt/embarrassment because I had, for the first time, taken some money from backers, almost all of whom were personal friends or family.  In the end, I was so frustrated by the experience that my drive and desire abandoned me.

I returned home defeated and played almost no poker in July and very little in August; I simply didn’t feel like it.  And then, before I knew it, my wedding date–with all the concomitant planning and fussing–was approaching.  Then the wedding was here.  Then I was on my honeymoon.  Then it was December.

In the end, I played about 33% less poker than I did in 2006 or 2007, earning only a fraction of what I made in those years, and at a lower hourly rate.  Where did the year go?

I’ve mentioned this about 2,000 times now, but it bears repeating.  Playing poker for a living really is nothing like holding a normal job where you draw a salary.  Most of us can sleepwalk through an occasional day or two at work and be none the worse for it; the same paycheck still comes every week or two.  Lord knows that I used to mail it in for weeks at a time when I worked that kind of job.  But I don’t get to mail my days in anymore.  Poker players trade in that luxury for the increased freedom we enjoy.  You have to want it bad in my world or you can’t make money.  If you strip me of my determination to play high-level poker, I’m basically unemployed (or worse, dead money).  And for much of 2008, I either was too disinterested or too distracted to play.  After the WSOP, I went through phases where I alternatively could not summon the desire or could not find the hours to kick it into gear.  It was a lost year.  Yes, I still made a decent living in 2008, but it was nevertheless a major disappointment. 

Although I’ve heard a few people predict that tournament poker will begin to die, thereby erasing my main source of income, I suspect better days are in store.  In December, in fact, the tide has already begun to turn.  I’ve been playing and winning steadily–and more importantly–thoroughly enjoying poker.  I have reason to believe that I’m back in the saddle.  Look out for Sug D in ’09!

Some 2009 Resolutions:

Hit the Tournament Trail:  I play very low volume for a professional.  Time to change that a bit.  I’m going to be busy at the start of 2009.  For the first time in my career, I’m hitting a non-Vegas circuit stop outside of the Northeast (okay, I did the Bahamas once).  On January 2nd I’ll be making my way to down to Biloxi, Mississippi to try my luck against some good ‘ol boys in the Southern Poker Championships at the Beau Rivage.  I’m even breaking with tradition and playing tournaments during the NFL Wildcard Games!  I’m planning on getting all Katrina on their asses down there.  After Biloxi comes the Borgata Winter Open, and after that I will likely play some stuff in Vegas and/or LA.  I’m mindful that balance is required here.  Too much time on the road does not agree with me (nor my new wife).  I will never become a full-time touring pro, but I intend to make a concerted effort to travel the circuit quite a bit in 2009.

No More Taking Stakes:  I’d always been proud of the fact that I only play my own bankroll.  I chose to abandon that strategy in 2008 in an effort to make some big scores at the WSOP and it backfired.  I don’t like feeling financially beholden to anyone else, and I probably put undue pressure on myself at the 2008 WSOP because of it.  I’m done with it.  If this means I have to grind it out in smaller tournaments and 2-5 NL cash games, so be it.  If you see me in a $10k event in 2009, it probably means I won a satellite.

Rebuild my Online Game:  I played very little online poker in 2008 and accomplished next to nothing in this area.  I have lost some confidence in my online play and I still cannot effectively play multiple tables.  I also have found it impossible to summon the willpower to truly concentrate and put in long online sessions.  In an effort to remedy these things, I am going to start from scratch with a two-monitor setup.  I’m taking three steps backwards and playing only small stakes cash games and tournaments online until I prove to myself that I can beat them.  Only then will I move up (Sundays are exempted from this rule, I’ll still play the big Sunday tourneys once the NFL season ends).  At the same time, I’ll be using my dual monitor setup to try and finally teach myself to play my A-game on more than two tables at a time.  I’ll probably be the only touring pro playing $2000 live tournaments on the road and $33 sit ‘n gos at home, but that’s the initial plan for 2009. 

No Ego:  I’ve come to realize that many of the mistakes I make playing poker are ego-driven.  For instance, I frequently misplay hands because I put myself in my opponent’s shoes, assuming he/she is playing a hand the way I would play it.  I ascribe goals and abilities to these opponents that are not present, which leads to terrible misreads.  I need to stop this.  Also, I am going to try my best to avoid unnecessary standoffs and pissing matches.  There’s a difference between aggressive play (necessary to win) and macho bullshit play (detrimental).  I am going to try and be alert but still look at every hand I play with fresh eyes, so to speak. 

And away we go…

Happy New Year everyone!

DZ

In our neverending quest to explain the universe around us, we have picked up an odd habit.  We (us humanoids) try to ascribe causality where there is none.  The more absurd and self-indulgent we are about this, the better.

In the realm of gambling our superstitions are obvious.  Most everyone has a lucky article of clothing.  It seems like most poker players have some kind of lucky chatchka they keep next to them on the felt.  In the pit, it’s even crazier.  Go play craps and try refusing to request the same dice the next time you toss one off the table and see how everyone else there regards you.

Even otherwise rational non-gamblers fall victim to this habit.  We eat the same breakfast every time we take an exam, thinking it will imbue us with the same ability we displayed the first time we ate it and aced a test.  We credit our spotless driving record to the decrepit stuffed animal sitting on our dashboard.  We think that hearing a certain song on the radio guarantees a big night out.  We knock on wood.  We do all sorts of silly stuff; people can (and do) develop obsessive-compulsive disorder keeping track of it all. 

Being a sports fan is no different.  We think that sitting in a particular chair increases the likelihood of a win.  We put on our lucky jersey before we turn on the TV.  We think that we can help our pitcher strike out a tough batter by twirling our hands around in circles.  Just ask that old lady who used to sit behind the plate at Shea Stadium.

I’m certainly not immune to these strange habits, particularly when it comes to the New York Jets.  I’m being perfectly honest and not exaggerating when I say this:  one of my life’s unfulfilled dreams is to see the Jets win the Super Bowl.  I have a hard time accepting the lack of control I have over making this eventually somehow happen, and the fact that the Jets have provided nothing but disappointment and heartbreak since I have been following them (which is a very long time) certainly doesn’t help.  I am quite crazy over this, and I have struggled along with the New York Jets for my entire life in a very real and very personal way.  It’s beyond question that I suffer more profoundly than the players on the New York Jets when the team loses, which is often.  How I got this way is up for debate, but I’m definitely out of my mind.  Should the New York Jets ever win the Super Bowl (this is something I frequently daydream about by the way), I believe my stunned reaction would be equal parts elation and catharsis.

Of course, I’m just as deluded about the Jets as those craps players who think that a red cube bouncing onto the carpet foretells disaster.  I’ve always done whatever I could to control the outcome of Jets games.  For a long time, my father and I agreed that swapping seats at the stadium could reverse three quarters of poor play.  While watching at home as a child, we routinely banished my mother from the room if her presence coincided with a Richard Todd interception.  I’ve tried everything, from articles of clothing too numerous to list, to uttering the same phrase before every play, to closing my eyes before third down plays, to screaming my head off before every snap, to three hour vows of silence.  Never have I managed to create the kind of correlation I’ve been searching for.  Until now.

It turns out that the connection is much simpler than I’d ever imagined.  Almost too simple, in fact.  It seems that I am the Jets’ problem.  That is, my physical presence anywhere in the vicinity of the New York Jets football club causes them to suck.

Witness their 2008 season.  From September through early November they played basic New York Jets football–the middling crappy .500 football to which I am accustomed.  They opened the season 5-3 thanks to a creampuff schedule and weren’t fooling anyone; they were going nowhere.  Then I left for Chicago for my wedding and honeymoon, and what happened?  While I pined away for my Jets and whined like a baby about missing their games for the first time since I was in diapers, they broke loose like an unshackled maniacal inmate.

While boarding the plane bound for my honeymoon, I discovered that the Jets were dismantling the Rams in the first home game I had failed to attend in many moons.  The following Thursday night, as I enjoyed a steak dinner in Mendoza, Argentina, the Jets beat the New England Patriots on the road, in an overtime thriller.  Two Sundays later, as I helplessly sat in a Brazilian airport, the Jets did the unthinkable, delivering a crucial win against the undefeated Titans by thumping them in their building.  The Jets were 8-3.  Logic and the pundits agreed:  this was a team to be reckoned with, headed for the playoffs and likely to do some serious damage once they got there.  While I was pretty upset about having missed their wondrous ascent to the top of the NFL power rankings, I was thrilled that an exciting winter and the possible fulfillment of my lifelong dream laid in store.  Then I came home.

With me back in the fold, the Jets have reverted to form and have DONE NOTHING BUT SUCK DONKEY BALLS FOR A FULL CALENDAR MONTH.  What looked like a great team has collapsed before my unbelieving eyes.  Draw your own conclusions, but the evidence is irrefutable.  I watch every single Jets game from 1979 until the middle of 2008, the Jets lose.  I miss three Jets games and they turn into worldbeaters.  I come back and resume watching, and they stink like a pile of steaming dog shit.  Barring a miracle, there will be no playoffs, no dream fulfillment, not even a little smug satisfaction.  Nope, just the same old, same old:  another Jets season swirling ’round in the toilet.

Sorry everyone.  I doubt you feel worse than me, but still, I’m sorry.  The Jets are in my DNA and I have no plans to move to another continent where American Football is not televised.  We’re all shit out of luck.

The NFL:  hypocritical, anti-poker and awesome.

How could my two favorite things have so much in common yet be locked in mortal political combat? 

That’s the question I asked when I discovered the following tale of gambling melodrama on my honeymoon.  You’ll have to forgive me if I get some minor facts wrong.  This is not a blog about politics and I sure as hell am not doing any major research on this stuff.  But the gist of the story is this:

The Unlawful Internet Gambling Enforcement Act (UIGEA) was passed awhile back.  While the poker players of the world stood idly by (the Poker Players’ Alliance was only created in the aftermath of bill’s passage), other groups did plenty of lobbying with the friendly Congressmen from the Christian Right who were responsible for the UIGEA.  One of these groups was the National Football League, who paid a guy named William Wichterman, a former employee of Rep. Bill Frist, the douchebag who first conceived of the UIGEA, over $200,000 to spearhead their lobbying effort.

Wichterman evidently did a good job, because the law that was passed defines gambling on sports as a prohibited activity but expressly exempts fantasy football (along with state lotteries, trading stocks, horse racing and some other stuff) from the reach of the UIGEA.  The NFL’s dual goal of protecting the sanctity of its game from the evil influences of gambling and preserving the rights (and associated income) of millions of dudes like me who play fantasy football was accomplished.

I’m not going to bother discussing the hilarity of the lottery and horse racing exemptions and will focus for now on how big a fucking joke the fantasy football exemption is. 

First of all, fantasy football is gambling.  It is a game of skill–and that is the exact grounds under which Wichterman advanced the cause for the carve-out it received–but as sure as Brett Favre crams his old white ass into tight pants every Sunday, fantasy football is gambling.  Groups of guys all over the United States pool their money, pick their players, then watch their players compete against the other guys’ players, and in the end someone wins the money.  You’re betting on players.  It’s gambling.  But it’s a form of gambling that has become exponentially more popular in the internet age and has somehow never become too socially stigmatized, unless you count calling those who participate nerds.  Either way, it is a huge revenue source for the NFL and Mr. Wichterman accomplished his goal of keeping it easy to play.

Second, the fact that the NFL draws a sharp distinction between the supposedly insidious “regular” football gambling and friendly ol’ fantasy football (and successfully lobbied Congress to enact legislation containing that same distinction) is unadulterated bullshit.  While I understand that blowing your life’s savings on the Bears/Vikings game in Week 4 is a lot easier to accomplish than losing your entire net worth in a fantasy football league, both forms of gambling are in fact games of skill.  And if you don’t believe me on that you’ll just have to trust me. 

Also, while fantasy football is a major revenue source, the amount of NFL interest generated by fantasy football is a drop in the proverbial bucket compared to what the mere availability of sides and totals on every game accomplishes.  The NFL’s product is perfect for gambling, the numbers are printed in every newspaper in America, it’s legal in Nevada, and hundreds of radio and TV pundits openly discuss these numbers on a daily basis.  Everyone, including the NFL, knows that “regular” gambling is a very big part of what makes football America’s game.  Gambling on football is as old as the game itself, for god’s sake.  It’s still more convenient for the NFL to continue with its “sanctity of the game” charade since they know full-well that the demand for action on its product is strong and inflexible, no matter what they say.  It’s better for the NFL to continue with its near-monopoly on sports gambling (look at the numbers sometime, only the NCAA tourney comes close).  So the NFL threw a bunch of money around and the UIGEA, tacked onto the back of an anti-terrorism bill, became reality.  Like I said earlier, the cardplayers of America were asleep at the switch:  the word “poker” never appears anywhere in the legislation and as such is treated the same as the lethal blight of football gambling.

Fast forward a few months:

The UIGEA reads like it was drafted by a drunk nimrod and it didn’t take people long to discover this.  The UIGEA requires America’s banking institutions to police themselves by coming up with regulations designed to restrict the flow of money to and from offshore gambling entities.  “Easier said than done” is an understatement with regard to accomplishing that, so the banks basically shrugged off this new responsibility and chose to do nothing at all.

In Congressional discussions (what are Congressional discussions called–“sessions” or something?), several groups stepped forward to pronounce the UIGEA and its proposed regulations a big pile of steaming shit.  The most vociferous objections came not from sportsbooks, poker sites, degenerate gamblers or libertarians, but from from our country’s banks, who unanimously stated that the regulations would be expensive, wasteful and impossible to enforce.  Then a long period of time passed by in which nothing happened.

Then came November 10th, 2008, one week after Obama’s election (and two days after my wedding).  On that date, William Wichterman–now no longer as an emissary of the NFL but gainfully employed by the Bush Administration as a “Deputy Director of Public Liaison” (whatever that is)–was up to his old tricks again.  Um, it’s been awhile since I took that ethics class, but this sounds a little bit conflict of interest-ish to me.  The UIGEA, supposedly at the behest of Wichterman, suddenly became a major priority and the UIGEA regulations became the subject of what is known in political circles as a “midnight drop.”   This apparently is what they call it when an outgoing administration pushes through a pet project or two before exiting the premises.  And so on November 10th, the Treasury Department finalized the regulations.  It remains to be seen what the Obama administration (or for that matter, the banks) will do with them, but they’re on the books for now.

The point of this blog entry isn’t to rehash my slanted version of the history of the UIGEA but rather to highlight the NFL’s role therein and to point out what unlikely enemies poker and the NFL are.  Poker and football provide America with two of its greatest pastimes and I with two of my great loves.  Not coincidentally, poker and the NFL provide us with two of our country’s most common forms of gambling.  Yet while poker must fight for legitimacy (particularly online), the NFL is so powerful that it has been able to influence lawmakers and keep its gambling-infested world in perfect order.

So, to Mr. Roger Goodell and the other bigshots at the NFL I have this to say: 

Dear Sirs,

I love your product and would be lost without it. 

But kindly eat me.

DZ

Once the afterglow of our engagement faded, Janeen and I faced the task of putting together our wedding weekend.  Like any sensible man, I dealt myself out of most of the planning, leaving the big decisions in the capable hands of my fiancee and her mother.  As they began their work, the picture that slowly emerged was of an upscale November affair in a fancy Chicago hotel.  Fine by me. 

Although I was thrilled to let Janeen and her mom do most of the planning, I did want to somehow put a personal stamp on the weekend (without any cheeseball poker references).  I’ve been to enough weddings to know that the guests are there at least partially because they’re expected to be there.  At best, they attend because they are somewhat obliged to “share in your happiness.”  At worst, being at the wedding is a outright drag.  So when I learned that I’d be asking my friends and family to travel a long way and spend a lot of money, I resolved to make my wedding fun, specifically for my friends.  Your great aunt is probably going to have a nice time at your wedding regardless of what the party’s like, but the people you hang out with on a weekend-to-weekend basis are going to be a bit more discerning.  Notwithstanding the limitations any wedding planner faces, I wanted a party that they’d enjoy.

Everyone has a different idea of what is fun, and frankly I wasn’t about to speculate on or really accomodate anyone else’s concept.  I’m lucky to have a big network of close friends who are familiar with and share in my version of big city fun:  late nights at bars, concerts and clubs, with music always playing a central role.  And the kind of music that moves me is the kind of music you can lose yourself in; preferably something funky, raw and improvised.  Something a wedding band is incapable of producing.  While a band that makes you say “Oh, ‘Living on a Prayer!!’ I LOVE this song!” has some merit, my version of a good band makes you say “Jesus, these guys are killing it!” instead.  So with Janeen’s blessing, I decided to ask my favorite band to play my wedding.

I discovered Milo Z in 1995 or 1996 when I went to see the Meters at Tramps.  Per usual, the Meters tore the place up, but it was the opening act that really blew me away.  They did funk music the right way, with a big sound driven by tight horn arrangements.  During the solos, the bandleader had a James Brown-esque control of the rhythm section, instructing them how many times to play their vamps (“two times!”).  Their songs were funny in the same way old school hip hop was funny:  songs about sex, songs with dirty nursery rhymes, plays on words, crowd participation with the vocals.  It all amounted to a convenient excuse to bounce to the bass and let the horn riffs fill your earholes.  I was smitten.  I became a Milo Z devotee, attending countless shows around the city for many years and introducing the band to everyone I knew, including Janeen.  If you hung out with me sometime between 1996 and 2003, chances are you and I caught a Milo Z show together.  And most everyone agreed with me:  it was a guaranteed good time; Milo Z brings it.  My friend Steve does Milo Z some justice in this entry on his blog, check it out.

In early 2008 Tramps was long gone (replaced by a dance club that I often frequented–that club is also now closed), but Milo Z was still working the NYC circuit.  I contacted the band’s manager and ever-so-slickly dropped the names of many discarded songs and ex-band members to prove that I was a legit old school fanboy.  She must have been suitably impressed, because after she conferred with Milo, we struck a deal.  She said they didn’t normally play weddings, but would make an exception for me.  Milo Z at my wedding.  Sweeet!

Unfortunately, my first ever concert booking set off a chain reaction of events and expenses for which I was woefully unprepared.  I had booked a New York band to play a Chicago wedding.  The band needed to be flown out to Chicago, needed transportation in Chicago, needed hotel rooms in Chicago, needed instruments and sound equipment in Chicago and needed a sound guy in Chicago.  All these issues were my responsibility and many turned out to be way more difficult than anticipated.  I also had to account for Milo Z’s shortcomings as a wedding band:  namely, I had to find a long recording of a Jewish Hora, recordings of songs for the traditional dances Janeen would have with her father and I with my mother and grandmother, and Janeen and I had to personally program the music that would be played at the ceremony, as there is no harp player in Milo Z’s crew.  It was a ton of work.  Overnight, I had gone from your basic groom-to-be to a club promoter.  So much for my detached indifference with respect to the wedding planning. 

Milo Z’s gig at my wedding was a closely guarded secret.  I wanted to surprise my friends, many of whom were at the introductory show at Tramps and many shows thereafter, and would surely appreciate the surprise guests.  In the end, although some of the older guests might have preferred a band that played “Unchained Melody,” I’m happy to say that Milo Z was a huge hit, although the surprise was ruined for many when the band was spotted at the hotel’s front desk.  The band was kind enough to learn and play “Sunny” (originally Bobby Hebb, but oft-covered), which they played for our first dance.  From that point forward it was a typical Milo Z show, and they even played 20 minutes of overtime when we didn’t want to leave the dancefloor.  By the end of the night, I had achieved exactly what I wanted:  my new bride and I dancing with our friends to that real live funky getdown on the getdown.

Milo doin’ werrrk.

White man’s overbite + happy bride

The entire wedding weekend was a success, I think.  All the planning done by Janeen and her mother was evident:  during the whirlwind of activity, I was still able to appreciate how good everything (including Janeen!) looked, how tasty the food was and how happy our guests were.  Everyone thinks their own wedding was the bees knees, so take that commentary with a grain of salt.  Only the guests are really qualified to rate the party, so you’ll have to talk to someone who was there. 

I do know this:  Janeen and I are blessed to have so many people in our lives that love us and support us.  That statement is eye roll-worthy boilerplate post-wedding blabbering, but I have special reason to believe that it’s the truth.  During our wedding weekend there were a number of speeches given on our behalf.  It was quite a speechy wedding–in fact, Milo Z’s second set was delayed because all of the speeches ran long.  But the speeches were neither boring nor repetitive.  Some of the speakers were invited, some were not.  Each person had something different to convey, and each speech came from a different angle:  some took a comedic or sarcastic approach and some were tender and heartfelt.  Some were throughly planned, and one person even employed visual aids.  Others were completely improvised on the spot.  The sentiment was nevertheless the same throughout, and it was obvious that each speaker held Janeen and I in high esteem.  I remain touched and grateful after listening to them and I’m likely to remember each of them forever.

And now here are some more pics.  I’ve lifted these from other people’s facebook accounts, so thanks guys.

bustle dat ‘ish, mom.

Janeen & her dad. 

I have a lot of good, old friends.

yayyyy

yayyyyy again

Janeen and I are back in Brooklyn, home from our honeymoon.  All tolled, between our wedding and South American adventure, we were away from home for about three weeks–a long time for us.  My devoted readership undoubtedly wants to find out what we were up to!

Alas, I have no desire to write about the whole thing right now.  But as a special favor, I am going to try and create a piecemeal recap by doing entries every couple of days.  Being that this is supposedly a poker blog, I will start with something tangentially related to my career.

It wasn’t long after our engagement in February that I was made aware of one of Janeen’s lifelong dreams:  to appear in the New York Times’ Sunday wedding announcements section.  Until February, I had lived out my sad little life blissfully unaware that this all-important section of the Sunday Times existed.  As a matter of fact, the allure of the Sunday New York Times has always escaped me.  Back in my single days (when I prowled the internet for my prey, a diversion that eventually led me to Janeen), I poked fun at how many J-Date profiles included a reference to “cuddling in bed, reading the Sunday Times on an autumn morning” in their “perfect relationship” essays.  As it turns out (at least, or so I’ve heard), much of the civilized world really does read the Sunday Times in bed–an activity that ranks just above Chinese water torture on my personal list of preferred leisure activities.  To the average educated Joe, fifteen hours of pro football is somehow less interesting than the Sunday Times.  Who knew?

As the months passed and our wedding approached, I dutifully took a look at the Times’ wedding announcements section to see what all the fuss was about.  Based on strength of Janeen’s desire for our names to end up in there, I had presumed that Times-worthy weddings would be some seriously high-falutin’ shit, but they’re not.  It says “Weddings/Celebrations” and then there’s about thirty or forty entries, some of which get extensive writeups and some of which don’t.  I found a smattering of the semi-famous and extremely accomplished–like bigwigs in the publishing and advertising worlds–but mostly I saw your basic white-collar schlubs marrying other white-collar schlubs:  lawyer marries teacher, advertising VP marries hedge fund guy, chemist marries doctor, etc.  Sometimes there were little unexciting blurbs attached.  “Michael and Sarah met at an accounting conference in Phoenix Arizona, where they made a happy discovery:  they lived on the same block on the Upper West Side of Manhattan.”   Didn’t seem like such a big deal to me.

Wrong!  Janeen was quick to correct me:  it’s quite hard to make it into to the Times, very few couples’ applications are accepted, and it would be the greatest thing ever if we made it.  Okay!  My beloved fiancee was really gung-ho about this so I was totally on board.  I imagined Janeen and I forty years from now, opening a dusty scrapbook and showing our grown children the moldy, yellowed Times clipping, with Janeen chirping pridefully about what an honor it was.  I resolved to help any way I could in our effort to become sort of famous by appearing in the Times.

When our wedding was only two months away, Janeen did her homework on how to prepare an application for inclusion in the Times’ wedding announcements.  It wasn’t much:  some biographical info and a close-up picture (“make sure your eyes are aligned horizontally”).  I did my part, describing myself as a “former attorney, now accomplished poker pro,” and Janeen sent it off. 

Then came an exciting development!  It turned out that Janeen’s brother and sister-in-law both knew people at the Times.  One of them was tight with the wedding announcement writers.  Someone took a look at our application and emailed some good news to Janeen:  that “it shouldn’t be a problem.”  We were a shoo-in.  This made Janeen very happy, and I was happy that Janeen was happy.  On November 9th, 2008, all those couples who really do read the New York Times in bed could have this wondrous exchange:

“Hey honey, look at this.”

“Yes dear?”

“Look, a poker player married a legal recruiter.  They’re from Brooklyn, but the wedding is in Chicago.  She has curly hair.”

“Wow.”

But trouble lied ahead.  As our wedding day approached, there was no word from the Times.  Janeen began to sense there was a problem.  On the Tuesday before our blessed day–deadline day for submission and approval–Janeen had her brother poke around for some info.  Then the crushing blow was delivered:  The Times considers poker a sport, and it only accepts the wedding announcement applications of “highly ranked” professional athletes.  Since I was not “highly ranked,” we were denied inclusion.  The writer explained that this was the decision of the editor and that there wasn’t anything that could be done unless I could somehow prove my worthiness of inclusion based on the standard of being “highly ranked.” 

As you might imagine, this left me feeling really indignant, but I hurriedly collected links to everything on the internet evidencing my success in poker:  my Pokerpages profile, articles about my tournament wins, a list from 2006 showing that I finished in the top 50 in the world in tourneys with buyins under $1000, even discussions on this website about how much I’d accomplished.  It failed to impress.  A guy who grinds out a living at poker isn’t good enough for the Times, you’ve got to be Phil Ivey.  We were out.

Now I felt indignant, wounded and disappointed.  Disappointed not for me, but for Janeen.  Anyone who knows me knows how integral my pride is to my persona.  The entire process of switching careers was an arduous undertaking for me.  The absence of a safety net in my chosen profession is a constant challenge.  Summoning the courage to forfeit the comfort and economic stability of my old life in exchange for a much more uncertain existence ranked as greatest accomplishment of my life to that point.  Actually succeeding in my new venture made it even sweeter.  Now Janeen and I were being told that I wasn’t good enough; the things I’m proud of accomplishing in my life were completely lost on the Times.  The worst part was that we’d be assured of inclusion had I never bothered with the poker.  It hurt a bit.  Had I chosen the path with the safety net and continued with my old career, I’d have been rewarded with a little blurb in the Times; another attorney getting married, and my fiancee would be ecstatic.  Instead, even with our inside connection, we were out because some editor at the Times (that bastion of liberal enlightenment) felt that I was not qualified for his wedding section.  I guess he was convinced that I was just a random unemployed guy who likes poker. 

Memories of the worst beat of my poker life came home to roost, too.  I thought to myself that had any card other than a five fell on the river when I was heads up for that bracelet we’d have made it.  If “poker pro David Zeitlin” wasn’t good enough, “WSOP bracelet winner David Zeitlin” probably was.  I apologized to Janeen, who assured me that she didn’t want the Times if the Times didn’t want me.

Then there was a sudden unexpected glimmer of hope.  Janeen’s brother’s connection was obviously a good one.  The writer at the Times was really trying to come through for us despite her editor’s ruling.  On Tuesday at around 3:00 we received an email from her.  She was convinced that she could get us more than included in the section; she could get us top billing–the lead story couple with the long and glorious entry–if we could provide her with an angle:  a compelling story about my change of careers and how it affected our relationship, or a description of what a loving relationship with a poker player is like. 

“Maybe there had been a struggle between David and Janeen’s mother with respect to the poker?” she asked.  Um, no–there was never anything like that at all.  But I was willing to type up some bullshit for the cause.  “Oh, by the way,” said the writer, “the deadline is in a half hour.  See what you can email me.” 

Working furiously (literally and figuratively), I concocted a story about winning both Janeen and her mother’s heart and proving myself in the poker world.  Janeen’s brother chipped in with the true story about meeting me and conducting a quick cross-examination on me.  The emails arrived before the deadline, but our fate was sealed for good when the editor (allegedly) had to leave the building early that day.  Our last ditch effort was for naught.  Add “feeling jerked around” to indignant, wounded and disappointed.

The writer apologized to us for not being able to come through.  I apologized to Janeen for being the reason one of her dreams could not become reality.  She did a good job of convincing me that she wasn’t that upset over it, and we moved on, hoping that it wasn’t a bad omen for our wedding weekend.

Why let all that bullshit I typed up go to waste?  I now present to Janeen (and the rest of the world) our wedding announcement, which I will publish myself, right here.  The New York Times can eat a dick.

Janeen Berkowitz and David Zeitlin

In his career as a professional poker player, David Zeitlin routinely makes dangerous high stakes split-second calculations.  In her career as a legal recruiter, Janeen Berkowitz has a discerning eye when it comes to selecting candidates for positions at her prestigious law firm.  In a decision that wasn’t nearly so difficult for the two ex-lawyers, Janeen accepted David’s bid to marry her in February of this year. 

David’s unusual career was initially a hot topic.  “When I first met David, he was an attorney with unusual career aspirations.  He was appearing in court every day and playing high stakes poker in New York’s card clubs a few nights a week.  My friends and I initially referred to him as ‘Gambler McShady.’  The connotation wasn’t entirely positive,” explains Janeen.

“I told Janeen about the poker on our very first date,” says David.  “I’m not sure if she knew what to make of a successful Jewish ivy-educated lawyer who had his sights set on a career as a professional gambler.  I was making quite a bit of money on the side playing cards recreationally, and in January of 2006, after giving about three months notice at my job, I officially made the jump and joined the pro poker tournament circuit.  Within a few months I notched my first six-figure cash by winning a pretty big tournament, and I’ve never looked back.  I make a better living doing this than I ever did as a lawyer.  And needless to say, being your own boss and making your own hours is a very nice perk.”

“It didn’t take me long to realize that David was talented, driven, and quite serious about his new career,” says Janeen.  “He was a good lawyer, but he’s a great poker player.  He found his calling.”

“I travel with him whenever I can–It’s a lot like the golf or tennis tour, I’d imagine.  I’m his rooting section.  I know all his opponents’ wives and girlfriends, too.  If you had told me two years ago that I’d be part of a tight-knit community of poker players’ wives, I’d have said you were crazy. But I really enjoy it!  David’s a self-made man and I admire that.  I am so proud of his success as poker player.”

The couple were wed on November 8 at the Westin Michigan Avenue in Chicago.  They reside in Brooklyn and are both really cool.  Too cool for the New York Times.

I loathe political discussions and completely avoid them.  Nothing ever gets accomplished with them.  But last night has moved me to make an exception and write a little something.

Maybe I’m getting old and sentimental.  Or maybe I’m just ferklempt over my wedding, which is this coming Saturday.  But last night made me proud.  Last night restored my faith in America, and I felt more American pride last night than I ever have before.  That’s no small statement from someone who lived in New York on Semtember 11th.

I’m proud to live in a country where the past eight years can be peacefully–but soundly and thorougly–rejected, like they were last night.

I’m proud to live in a country that at its core really is progressive.  I’m proud to live in a country that will put a black family in the White House based on merit.

I’m proud to have experienced a general election that caused spontaneous cheering out my window, with my neighbors hugging in the street.

I’m proud of our new president and excited to see what he can accomplish.

The McCain supporters I know all voted McCain for the same reason:  taxes.  They are all people who earn a lot of money and they can’t stand the thought of parting with some of it.  Nevermind that this election, at least to me, was about much more than finance.  Having had the experience of earning quite a bit of money in two different spheres, I have strong feelings on the issue of taxation. 

In my last blog entry I mentioned the sense of entitlement that young lawyers at my old firm had.  That same false sense of entitlement actually permeates much of America’s monied class.  I believe that the average American is honest and hard working.  I believe that Americans end up in their respective professions for a variety of reasons:  differences in opportunity, individual desires and aptitudes play a large role.  I believe there is dignity and value in all manner of work.  Having now worked in two very different occupations, and having a family tree with a background in numerous, wide-ranging professions, I can honestly say that I see ZERO correlation between salary earned and an individual’s value added to society.  If you don’t agree with that, then you might be offended by this, and you’ll probably call me a socialist:

If you make more than $250,00 a year, what makes you so goddamned special?  You’re smart enough and fortunate enough to have received a higher education, and you’ve parlayed that into a lot of money.  Good for you.  But I’ve lived amongst you, and you’re nothing special for having that money.  If your goal in life in just to accumulate money, you’re sad.  Become a doctor because you love medicine.  Become a lawyer because you enjoy thinking analytically.  Become an investment banker because you like doing whatever the hell investment bankers do.  Become CEO of your company because your out-of-control ego demands it.  But don’t exist only to make money, and for god’s sake, stop thinking you’ve accomplished so much because you’ve stashed all that cash.  Congrats on “making it,” buddy.  But really, who are you?  There’s nothing about you thats more worthy than a high school math teacher or an electrician or even your secretary.

I’m sorry, but I see nothing nothing unreasonable about asking you to give some of that money back.  I guess I’m a socialist. 

Thanks for reading my amateur political jibber-jabber.  And now Janeen and I are off to get married.  I know that many of the people who read this will be with us in Chicago.  We can’t wait to celebrate–both our new president and our incredible good fortune–with you!    🙂

A couple of days ago I played a poker tournament in Connecticut’s newest poker venue, the Mohegan Sun Casino.  “Newest” is actually a misnomer since Mohegan Sun is neither new to poker nor to me.  When I walked into Mo’ Sun’s still-familiar confines, a funny thing happened.  I felt some pangs of unexpected nostalgia. 

To enter the poker tournament, I needed a Mohegan player’s club card.  Mohegan Sun is now much larger than I remembered it, so it took me some time to locate the player’s club booth.  I eventually found it, and as the attendant handed me a shiny new card I asked him, out of curiosity:  “could you tell me the last time I gambled here?”  He poked around on his computer and had an answer for me within a few seconds.  He smiled wide and said “2003!  It’s been awhile, Mr. Zeitlin.  Welcome back.” 

Indeed.  Mohegan Sun is a relic from another time in my life. 

If, like me, you were fortunate enough to graduate from an Ivy League law school in 1998, you were in a good spot.  The economic climate was very different from the gloom of today’s financial marketplace.  In fact, I’d say the conditions were completely the opposite.  In 1998, if you could provide your prospective employer with proof of moderate scholastic competence at University of Pennsylvania Law School and accompany that with the slightest glimmer of ambition, you were rewarded with a six-figure job at a big law firm.  And that is exactly what I was given, along with all of my law school friends. 

One might think that handing over $100,000 to a 24-year old whose only significant accomplishment is completing law school would make that person humble and appreciative, but you’d be wrong.  In actuality (circa 1998 at least), the average first-year associate at a big NYC firm quickly cultivated a remarkable sense of entitlement, matched only by the bullishness of the prevailing legal job market.  Unbelievably, I received no fewer than three market-based pay raises in my first year out.  Each time, the sequence of events was the same:  One major firm would announce an increase in their pay scale.  Associates at my firm (and all the other big firms) began to openly salivate.  Some other firms would match the pay raise.  Associates at my firm (and at the remaining holdout firms) became incensed, bitching and moaning at every turn and in every forum open to them.  My firm eventually caved and gave us all a raise.  Rinse and repeat.  By the time my first year was drawing to a close I was making something like $125,000.  Pretty neat!

I spent my days doing what junior litigation associates do:  occasionally drafting legal memoranda and document indices, but mostly firing snarky emails and instant messages back and forth to my similarly situated friends, being sure to stay at my desk until at least 7:00 every night, whether I had work to do or not (you gotta look like you’re working hard!)  I spent my weekday nights ordering chinese food in to my upper east side apartment and watching ballgames.  And I spent my weekend nights carousing Manhattan’s newly gentrified lower east side, part of a group that invariably ended its drunken sojourns at a dumpy falafel joint, stuffing our faces full of shwarma before sharing taxis back uptown.  

Once every month or two–usually in the company of a couple of the friends and typically on a weeknight– I afforded myself a special treat:  a drive up to Connecticut’s newest casino:  Mohegan Sun.  Student loans or not, my friends and I had disposable income, we loved to gamble, and if we drove faster than we really ought to, we could reach Mo’ Sun in about two hours–it was the closest (above ground) casino to Manhattan.

In those days there wasn’t much to the place.  Mohegan Sun then consisted of a crummy food court, a handful of junky stores, a low wattage radio station (the WOLF!) and a gas station/mini mart.  And, lest I forget:  a casino.  A casino with plenty $5 craps tables with 3-4-5x odds and an uncanny habit of paying me money.  For reasons known only to the Indian gods, I always ran ridiculously hot at Mo’ Sun.  We’d saunter onto the barren casino floor, sidle up to a craps table, play for a few hours, order free drinks (they served free milkshakes!) and more often than not, pocket a few hundred dollars.  Making things even sweeter, probably becuse management was trying to lure players from the elder Foxwoods casino up the road, Mo’ Sun’s comp system treated us rather lavishly.  If we played four or five hours of $5 craps we earned some handsome rewards.  On the way out, our little posse would stop at the gas station/mini mart and stock up on free Hostess Fruit Pies and soft drinks, then help ourselves to a complementary tank of gas.  Sweeeeet! 

Back then, there was no hotel on Mohegan Sun’s premises, but my friends and I could not have cared less.  We were perfectly happy to drive home at 2am as we scarfed down fruit pies, listened to Joe Benigno on WFAN and prattled on about the stupid shit some other craps player had been saying each time the dice were tossed.  We’d get to bed around 4:00 or 4:30.  By 10:30 am, we were all at our respective desks, earning our bloated paychecks and bitching to one another over AOL Instant Messenger about how tired we were.  Good times.

Meanwhile, I continued to receive market-based pay raises as my life progressed (really, regressed) in ways that I’ve dicussed in this blog many times.  I caught the poker bug late in 2001, about a year and a half before Chris Moneymaker officially lit the fuse.  To satisfy my growing curiosity, I bought two books and did some cursory reading about poker’s mysterious championship game:  a two-card game called hold ’em that was apparently was all the rage out in Vegas.  Naturally, after reading the two books I believed I was qualified as a grand master of hold ’em.  I was itching to play against other experts.  Again, enter Mo’ Sun. 

After one of our Mohegan craps sessions, I vowed that the next time I set foot in the place it would be for a special purpose–to explore the strange, quiet room off on the periphery–the poker room. 

I knew that poker was not an especially social game–at least not in the same way that craps is a social game– and that to play in earnest I needed to set aside plenty of time for a multi-hour session.  So the next time I drove to Mohegan Sun I did so alone, in the middle of the day, ready to wade into unfamiliar waters:  my very first poker game at a felt-covered table.  Not at my grandparents’ kitchen table.  Not at a collapsable table in my parents’ basement.  Not at a carved up wooden dormitory or frat house table.  And not even at an Ikea table in some colleague’s Manhattan apartment, but at an honest-to-god felt-covered table, surrounded by real poker players who desperately wanted my money.  On the trip up, I had butterflies.  There was serious tumult in my gut as I parked my car and walked into Mo’ Sun’s poker room.  As I put my name on the 2-4 (limit, there was no such thing as no-limit then) list, I was beset by a nervous feeling that was strong enough to make me consider skipping it entirely and heading for the more familiar craps table.  Yeah, I was scared shitless.

I don’t remember too much from that first session of 2-4 limit.  I do know that I lost heavily, dumping two buy-ins of $80 apiece.  I remember that I was suprised at how old the average player was.  I know that the game moved way too fast for me, leaving me completely befuddled most of the time.  For about 90% of the session it was my turn to act and eight retirees were glaring at me as I fumbled with my hole cards. 

I only remember one specific hand from that first losing session:

A dark-skinned guy with a ponytail was sitting two seats to my right, having a great time.  His demeanor was relaxed and he had a way of flipping his chips into the pot that said “this ain’t my first rodeo.”  He scared the shit out of me.  And he was playing an odd brand of poker:  constantly raising and sometimes reraising preflop, before the board cards were dealt!  When we got involved in the same hand, I simply folded, not knowing how to handle him.  I remember thinking that he was a reckless idiot, but also that there possibly was a method to his madness.  His antics were certainly effective–the bastard had the largest stack at my table.  The prospect of counterattacking him terrified me, but I knew that there was a way I could possibly trap him:  I could wait for super-strong hole cards and raise every time he bet.  It took a few hours of quietly losing money, but I finally found a good opportunity to execute my special plan.

I was in the big blind and I had pocket queens.  About five people limped and the guy with the ponytail raised.  I swallowed hard and squeaked “reraise” as I bet $6.  Everyone folded back to the ponytailed guy, and he nonchalantly said “cap it” as he reraised again.  “Shit, he has pocket aces,” I thought to myself as I stuck in another $2. 

My heart skipped a beat when I saw the flop:  Q-10-6!  The nuts!  I checked and then merely called ponytail’s $2 bet, continuing to execute my perfect trap.  When the turn card fell, my heart skipped two beats.  Another six!  The mortal nuts!  Again I checked, carefully placing more foliage over the concealed forest hole I was about to dump Mr. Ponytail in.  He bet $4, just as I suspected he might.  Now it was time to spring the trap!  My heart totally aflutter, I maintained a semblence of outer cool and checkraised to $8.  To my suprise and utter astonishment, Mr. Ponytail considered my bet for maybe one second, looked straight through me, grinned a big gap-toothed grin, then folded pocket kings face up.  Holy shit, this guy is really fuckin’ good, I thought to myself as I nervously raked in the biggest pot of my felt-poker life. 

I sat for another hour or two and lost what was left in my stack.  The experience left me hungry for more.  I especially wanted to discover the secrets of the Ponytailed man. 

That would be my last poker session at Mohegan Sun for a very long time.  In a classic case of inauspicious timing, Mo’ Sun managment decided to close its poker room just as Moneymaker’s bomb detonated.  As my recreational (and eventually, professional) life began to revolve around poker, I swore off Mohegan Sun’s friendly confines and became a devotee first of NYC’s underground card rooms, and then of the Atlantic City casinos, along with Foxwoods and its massive poker room.  At the same time, my group of friends were getting married and having kids, with little time for weeknight craps runs.  Alas, since The Sun had no poker, The Sun was no more.

Until last week when Mohegan Sun opened a new poker room and held its first tournament.  It was good to be back.  The place is about ten times bigger than I remember it, and I didn’t do anything in its inaugural tournament, but it was good to be back.  I’ve always liked it up at Mo’ Sun.

The final days of my betrothal are in sight.  The last phase was strange indeed.  Journeys to Home Depot and quarreling on nuptial topics ruled the day.  Now it is time to get down to brass tacks; two business trips to take with an ancient Spartan tradition sandwiched between.  And then the conjugal period shall commence.

Loosely translated:  Our apartment is fully furnished and our wedding planning is about done.  Janeen and I have survived, but not without bickering over topics of vital importance such as the wording of our wedding program and the color of my cummerbun.  Soon I’ll be traveling to Vegas for a multipurpose trip; first comes a few poker tournmanets, and then my bachelor party.  If I survive the bachelor party, I will return to the East Coast and immediately report to Connecticut for tournaments at Foxwoods and Mohegan Sun.  And then I will get married and whisk the bride off to South America.

If I kept a calendar, I would happily tell you that it’s packed!

I’m writing this entry to confirm something I already know:  I’ve played very little poker since the WSOP ended.

The beginning of my hiatus could be explained away as a break.  And boy did I need a break after the WSOP.  But the last month or two so is more difficult to decipher.  I think each of the following has been a factor:

-I’ve had a litany of chores clogging my schedule, leaving me with very few of the requisite multi-hour blocks of unoccupied time;

-I’m still not really comfortable in my new “office;” and

-I’m resigned to posting so-so results for 2008, so my desire to play poker has abandoned me;

I don’t know which of these is the dominant factor, but I do know that I haven’t spent much time at all playing cards of late.  In particular, I’ve played almost no online poker.  Playing online currently feels like more of a hassle than anything else.  On my recent trips to play live poker, I’ve found that my game (and will to succeed) remains as sharp as ever, but in my limited attempts to play online sessions, I’ve been bored and distracted.  Replacing my usual long online sessions are activities previously foreign to me:  helping to furnish an apartment, helping plan a wedding, exploring a new neighborhood, jogging.    

Another noteworthy fact is that football season has arrived, and I watch or study football for around 15 hours per week.  In both 2006 and 2007, I had amassed enough poker winnings by the time fall arrived to rest on my laurels.  This year I have not, but my behavior hasn’t changed.

I’m sure this is a temporary condition, but I don’t know when the malaise will end.  On the plus side, the rest of my life is more orgainzed than ever!  

All right, I’m off to color coordinate my sock drawer.  Later!